This Year has been a hard one for many. Hardships typically bear growth, this year was different from others mainly because there were numerous trials in my life that had very little immediate growth following. Theres always good fruit after hardship, but often times when deep things change the manifestation of your revelation slowly happens. And the realization of your growth that you thought was small turns out to have been at work all the while. I learned about my pride, and how it dictates my actions more often then I care to admit.
I learned to let go, giving things up to God is quite possibly one of the most freeing, joyful, overwhelmingly wonderful things, and I plan on making a habit of it. I learned to love a girl, a very beautiful, wonderful, Godly, daughter of the king, and how much of a simple gift she is. In my pride and sin that gift had to be taken away. The timing and mercy of Jesus brings peace unknown to many. Provers 21:2 says, " A person may think their own ways are right, but the Lord weighs the heart." There is always hope, and in my limited knowledge of the glory of Jesus I know he works to restore things in the most beautiful way possible. He stands in the gap and intercedes for my short comings, I'm blinded by my pride and what I think is best. Praise the Lord that he is a good father and he loves us in the most beautifully complex, simple way. Psalm 71 puts this year into a perfect picture, an honest cry to God about hardship. But not a hopeless one, it continually acknowledging the Lord's faithfulness. "In You, O Lord, I put my trust; Let me never be put to shame. Deliver me in Your righteousness, and cause me to escape; Incline Your ear to me, and save me. Be my strong refuge, To which I may resort continually; You have given the commandment to save me, For You are my rock and my fortress. Deliver me, O my God, out of the hand of the wicked, Out of the hand of the unrighteous and cruel man. For You are my hope, O Lord GOD; You are my trust from my youth. By You I have been upheld from birth; You are He who took me out of my mother’s womb. My praise shall be continually of You. I have become as a wonder to many, But You are my strong refuge. Let my mouth be filled with Your praise And with Your glory all the day. Do not cast me off in the time of old age; Do not forsake me when my strength fails. For my enemies speak against me; And those who lie in wait for my life take counsel together, Saying, “God has forsaken him; Pursue and take him, for there is none to deliver him.” O God, do not be far from me; O my God, make haste to help me! Let them be confounded and consumed Who are adversaries of my life; Let them be covered with reproach and dishonor Who seek my hurt. But I will hope continually, And will praise You yet more and more. My mouth shall tell of Your righteousness And Your salvation all the day, For I do not know their limits. I will go in the strength of the Lord GOD; I will make mention of Your righteousness, of Yours only. O God, You have taught me from my youth; And to this day I declare Your wondrous works. Now also when I am old and gray headed, O God, do not forsake me, Until I declare Your strength to this generation, Your power to everyone who is to come. Also Your righteousness, O God, is very high, You who have done great things; O God, who is like You? You, who have shown me great and severe troubles, Shall revive me again, And bring me up again from the depths of the earth. You shall increase my greatness, And comfort me on every side. Also with the lute I will praise You And Your faithfulness, O my God! To You I will sing with the harp, O Holy One of Israel. My lips shall greatly rejoice when I sing to You, And my soul, which You have redeemed. My tongue also shall talk of Your righteousness all the day long; For they are confounded, For they are brought to shame Who seek my hurt." This year has been a torrent of pain and loss, but there are deeper things at work. When you believe in Jesus theres always an underlined message of hope, theres second chances, theres grace, and theres peace. God, in his wisdom, and immeasurable grace governs all these things.
I've learned so much this year, the man I am, supposed to be, and am becoming. A man who is sure of his emotions, confident in a peace not his own, and honors his family and friends well. A man who wars in prayer and seeks the ruggedly beautiful face of Jesus in the early hours of the morning and night. Let no one say that I didn't listen to your voice God, that I didn't act in your wisdom or seek your face. I'm learning a lot and I'm continuing to learn more. This year has been a hard one but I'll never forget the lessons I learned, the people I met and grew to love, and the things I accomplished in the spiritual and natural. Excited for a new year just as hard and wonderful.
Ég er að læra -means Im Learning.
Once again excuse any grammatical errors, as much as I love writing I'm not good at it, another thing I'm learning.
Cheers, Alec Fritz